I am one hot sloppy mess these days. It seems like one emotional breakdown after another. I can cry at anything...and I mean EVERYTHING. It all started the Monday night of Memorial Day weekend. I couldn’t sleep...thanks to my wonderful hormones. The only thing I could find on TV to watch was Toy Story 3. It is actually a really cute kid’s movie. I was very intrigued through the whole thing. Especially towards the end when I was hysterically crying. I am talking like snot bubbles/can't breathe crying. This is absolutely ridiculous people. A 27 year old woman should not be sobbing to a kid’s movie. I was crying so hard it woke up Dustin. He was startled and asked "why are you crying." I said “This movie is so sad". He says "Is that Toy Story? Are you crying to a cartoon?" I reply "Yes! Andy had to give away his toys when he went to college". See ridiculous...obviously this was the hormones kicking in. This was only the beginning...
First off, I know that I am very blessed with a healthy baby, and being able to get pregnant so easy. I realize this, but until you go through a pregnancy yourself you have no idea! I am very thankful for a healthy baby. I however, have had a super hard time with a lot of these wonderful pregnancy symptoms. Number one being the weight gain. When I was in my senior year in high school I lost 30 pounds on weight watchers. I have since then always watched what I was eating, and have been very self conscious about gaining weight. Of course I yo-yoed a lot through college, but have always seemed to get right back on track to my "goal weight". I am having a super hard time with the pregnancy weight gain. Yes I know I need to gain weight for the baby, and when she is born I can diet again. It is just so hard to get on the scale and see the numbers constantly go up. I am having a super hard time with this. Second, I am literally going bald. My hair comes out in chunks in the shower some times. Really gross! I have several bald spots on my, and I bought a special shampoo and have not noticed a difference yet. The third thing is my constant acne. It has not gone away, and is now scaring my face. When one zit leaves 4 or 5 replace it. Also, really gross! All of this with my lovely raging pregnancy hormones made me have an emotional breakdown that Tuesday. I must have cried every hour that I was awake that day. I had ton of problems at work, nothing was going right. I was way past my breaking point. I was super depressed and one huge hot sloppy mess. I called my doctor hoping for some kind of help with the acne and hair loss. Her reply was "Well unfortunately for a small percentage of pregnant women their hormones never stabilize, and they have constant acne with their hair falling out. This only happens to a small percentage of women though". Cool, but I don't care that it is a small percentage of women....it’s happening to ME. So basically I got shot down for any type of topical ointment for my face...which was followed by another emotional breakdown. Poor Dustin had to leave the house when he got home. I was such a wreck...I wouldn't want to hang out with me either.
The good news is that Wednesday I felt much better. I had lunch with my Mom and Brent, and went for some "retail therapy" after. My wonderful Mom knew exactly what I needed....A couple hours at T.J. Maxx! When I came home to these beautiful flowers from my amazing husband:

Who else would put up with this crazy, emotional, sloppy hot mess, and pregnant lady!